christmas won’t be too merry anymore this year. i had just lost my greatgrandfather (november) and uncle (december). should we celebrate? how? they say that people shouldn’t mourn over someone’s death, instead it should be thanked for coz it only means that they’re free from sufferings and all that.

but i have a problem. they both died of pneumonia plus other complicated illnesses. i have been in contact with them before their bye-byes. i have a cough, it’s more than a month now. i’m afraid i might have gotten this from them coz if it’s normal cough then it would have been cured after a week or so. i’ve tried a lot of medications and they’re not working so well. i went to the doctor, she said acute bronchitis. i had my x-ray, it said negative chest. what the heck was that? is there also a positive chest? i don’t understand the explanation coz my mom was the one who talked to whoever in the hospital. i’m coughing so hard, and it’s embarrassing specially when i have my tutorial classes. it’s giving me a hard time. sometimes when i wake up early in the morning, i can’t breathe properly. feels like i’m dying or something. shit. i’m planning to take a leave from work so i can rest coz the doctor says it might be because of stress. blah. whatever. i want all the phlegm out of my lungs! now na!

anyway, i hope everybody will have a merry merry christmas and a happy new year. (T_T)